The devil knows our insecurities, and what to say to make us hurt. It can be something small, something seemingly insignificant that gets amplified into a big nightmare.
With me, it is laziness. Growing up, the people that raised me vegetated in front of the television as countless days would come and go… And they would do nothing. At times, it felt like I was watching mannequins, with glazed eyes and a beer in hand, sitting their lives away.
I used to think, “Why don’t they do something? Anything?”
And when it was time for the mannequins to come alive and verbally abuse me, “lazy” would be one of the most-oft used words.
So, I dislike laziness, to say the least.
Insidiously, the devil has found a way to weaponize this small detail in my life. Let’s see if this sounds familiar to you: You’re doing something, say, enjoying a quick video or magazine, and you think “I should be doing something else.” There’s this nagging feeling that something is just not right. There’s something else that needs your attention at this time.
So, realizing that God does want us to be fruitful, you set aside your magazine and find something more productive to do. You pick up a book instead. But only a few pages into it, you wonder if you should be reading a different book. Or, if you should be doing something more active than actually reading. You wonder so much that you realize you have no idea what the last 5 pages you read actually said. So, you set the book aside.
Maybe you start cleaning, or returning work email, or working out. But still, the feeling that you should be doing something else lingers and sticks with you like a gnat. Before you know it, you’ve been busy all day… but not entirely fruitful.
This little dancing-with-busyness game has been happening to me for two months now. And I’ve gotten a lot done, to be honest. But I’ve abandoned the one thing that is truly fruitful, and that is writing my novel.
It wasn’t until I watched several Joyce Meyer conferences that I realized, wait a minute. Something isn’t right here. I was being pulled around from one thing to another, a busy bee doing stuff that had nothing to do with truly following Christ.
Talk about a wake-up call.
Busyness does not equal fruitfulness. I noticed this when, on a particularly busy-busy-busy day, I checked off every single item on my to-do list… yet I didn’t feel like I accomplished anything. Stuff was done. Inconsequential stuff. Stuff that could have waited.
Now that I’m aware of this most subtle trick of the devil, I am paying more attention to what I am doing with my life. If it’s time to read a magazine, I sit and I read it and I enjoy it. If it’s time to work on my novel, I set a timer and get to work. If the house needs cleaning, I do it, but I leave the big stuff for Monday, when I have scheduled to do it weekly.
I’m also becoming more mindful of spending time reading the Bible and spending time with my boyfriend, building my relationship. There is no more running around from one thing to another. There is no more long to-do list of hollow stuff to get done.
Once you become aware of this trick, it is super easy to course-correct and get on the right path again, the path to fruitfulness and glorifying God 😊 As soon as you find yourself in too much busyness, get back to what truly matters in life.
Take care and God bless,